Issue #11

Loosing the Human Form

by: Kristopher Raphael

Graduating From the Human Form

“Losing the human form brings the freedom to remember your Self.” (don Juan speaking to Carlos in the “Eagle’s Gift.”)

There comes a point in our path when we must choose between the “human form” and the “other self.” Because we live bound by the human form, much of what we think we need or want is no more than surface desires of the human form. We do not know what is “best” for us in terms of our growth path.

This is seen very often when speaking about Intent and manifestation. As long as the human form binds us, the only intent we know is the intent of the human form. When we manifest from this intent we are only strengthening the human form.

The human form is similar to the “false personality” or ego self in other systems of growth. The human form is only capable of imitating the “other self” (the other self is similar to the essential self or true self in other schools). The human form attempts to imitate love, intent, and desires. But they are all false. It is false intent, false love and false desires. The human form is temporary and does not really “exist” in the bigger picture. When our body dies it dies. If we spend a lifetime with our identity firmly planted in our human form, as most people do, we (our identity) die along with our human form.

True Intent comes from the nagual, is blueprinted by our Dreamer and is implanted in our other (essential) self. Our essential self feeds on experience and grows. But in most, the essential self is walled off by our human form and starves. No growth occurs.

Our lives have very little meaning, except fodder for the Eagle, unless we connect to our purpose and destiny (which is extended from our Dreamer like a hologram into our essential self) and manifest this purpose in our life. This requires true Intent behind true desires, not the false intent and desires of the human form. Until we begin to drop the human form we are really fooling ourselves, as any intent will be false. It will be an imitation, and a poor one at that – an imitation with a very short shelf life.

Beliefs are an attempt by the human form to imitate truth. Knowledge is the human form’s substitute for knowingness. Our emotional walls are the human form’s attempt to imitate true personal power. The human form is not capable of true love, which is why the average person’s love is really co-dependence. The human form is incapable of distinguishing between being separate and being individual . . . and the list goes on.

The human form is capable of intending and manifesting. But, as it is not capable of “knowing” what the “Self” truly needs, it ends up manifesting form that only enmeshes us deeper into the dream of the planet, reducing our already slim chances for freedom.

 Love and Light, Kris

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Heaven on Earth . . . a Path with Heart

by: Mark Sutton

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 by Vessela Sadamori

This last month was very special to me. I managed to brake several behavioral patterns that were the source of much unhappiness, I opened the door to my heart so love could flow freely through it and for the first time in my life I got to taste what personal power was. Like everybody I had read about that so difficult to describe and so coveted quality but didn’t really understand what it meant until a week ago. Personal power is something that must be experienced to be comprehended in full.

By nature I am a rebel. In the past if something didn’t sit well with my idea of how the world should be I rebelled against it and that gave me the feeling of being powerful and in perfect capacity to manipulate and control my outer world the way I wished. I pulled and I pushed and I mostly had things go my way. Little did I know that all I did was lose my power, that such behavior was a dead end street.

As if to nail this lesson firmly into my head Life presented me with a real challenge – I made my home in Japan, a country with culture and social order so different from the ones I was brought into that they pushed all my rebel buttons full power. But this time attempting to control and change my outer world meant I had to change the very outlook of life those people had. After breaking my head numerous times I understood the wall would not bulge and if I didn’t want to turn into a bitter and angry creature I had to accept my host country the way it was and try to change myself instead. I had learned my lesson but only part of it because I didn’t know yet what that change should be.

 I decided I should accept stoically whatever life brought my way and try to gain acceptance into the local society at any cost. A bad mistake as I found out later because it led me to suppression of all my natural feelings. I was as lonely and miserable as before, only angrier. Years passed and I reached saturation level - I wanted to be free of all those restrains and naturally I rebelled again. I saw freedom as being free to do as I wished.  It did no matter how shocking or unacceptable that was to the people around me. I partied and I traveled, I didn’t give a penny about people’s opinion, I did as I pleased and I thought I was free. This didn’t hide the fact I still wasn’t especially happy, something was badly missing. This wild running around didn’t bring the peace and completeness my soul craved. In fact I felt weaker and weaker too because my outer world required more and more energy to control. It was a veritable black hole and I didn’t see any way out of it.

Around the beginning of last year I read a quote from Gandhi saying we had achieved true freedom only when we felt happy and fulfilled in our particular life circumstances, no matter what they were. My initial reaction was “How can this be? What if you were a slave?”, and then I thought well, you obviously have to accept that, and I left it there. How to gain such an acceptance and feel happy was not clear at all. The only way I saw was through severe suppression of my desires or I was back to stoicism, spinning in circles and going nowhere.

Several months later and when life was beginning to feel really unbearable I was fortunate to meet my teacher. With his help little by little I began to see how automatic my behavior was. I felt like a preprogrammed robot, all my reactions decided by the wounds my emotional body bore. There was not even a vestige of freedom in my actions, no matter what I did the way I reacted to my outer world was completely out of my control because I was not in control of myself. I began to see that gaining freedom meant regaining control of myself and the only way I could do that was by healing and cleaning my inner world, reintegrating into the whole all the little I-s that made me act in such an erratic way. Only then I could say I was free and by that claim freedom in my outer world too. The way to have dominion over it wasn’t to dominate and manipulate it as I did before but to have the full freedom total control over one’s personality gave. I could control my outer world and the way it affected me by controlling myself. This in turn gave me the feeling of power, of independence, something quite different from the twisted perception of the word I had in the past. And the way to enlarge this power is to assume full responsibility of my actions and give my outer world all the care and attention it needs. The way I see it now is it was given into my care the same way my inner world was. I can do nothing but my best in both because the boundary between them does not really exist, it is an artificial one.

I have just begun to travel a long road and the journey ahead will not be easy but fear is not my companion any more. All I feel is joy and excitement because I know the fruits this journey will bring are priceless – more power, more freedom and ME. I am on my way back to my SELF.

Love and Light, Vessela

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The Dream

by David Pawlak

Can’t move! I’m restricted, something has me… I don’t know, jammed, it’s dark, something’s … happening. I’m not sure where I am.. the memory is faint… I’m going in again, I’ve been here, I know it.

Hum.. I move into brightness…. Much light, bright pink! Sounds, lots of sounds.. too much. Screaming terror now, what’s that? It moves with me, this sound comes from me. No control, light, movement, cold…..

Wheel, spinning wheel, yes I like this. My Mommy brought it to me. There she is, I’ll tell her… “Bthlit. Nlieth, bvwitt”. She smiled. “Ma!” I tell her. Whoaah, she’s calling Dad, pointing at me, “what?”. “Ma?” she says. I know, I know. I smile. I like my wheel.

And so the dream continues, day after day, building in complexity and yet deepening in casualness. Moving away from the “memory” of the origin, lost in the Dream.

Do we not ask why? Yes, some do, but still few. There’s a long way to go.

We have built such a model around us, of local truths, that we can’t even see what really IS. It is NOT just an everyday occurrence that we exist, and that we can know it! It just seems like it, because it IS with us every day. But that is the nature of the Tonal. It seems like it is everything.

But it’s not; it’s just the tip of the iceberg, and this is not an easy thing to see. There are so few clues that there is more than the Tonal, it seems a miracle that anyone was lead to work their way out. But there are embers in the woodpile and inherent knowingness that revives in many.

Us warriors, those that have worked at cleaning the long built egg shaped shell of personal reflection can begin to see the real Dream, can begin to see through the Dreamers eyes.

I open this brief opportunity to do it right NOW. As you read these words, feel where they lead to in consciousness. Don’t loose your focus. Where do you  know and feel what is actually happening right NOW?…. Eternal BEing, seen now through your eyes, and in the same way seen through every other eye in existence. I AM the Dreamer, as you live for ME. And as you feel you ARE, I AM HERE, and you are my Dream. I can Love nothing more.

Love and Light - Dave

Toltec Vision: Life as a House

by Kalyn Raphael

Life is a cycle. The sun rises every day, the sun sets every day; the cycles of beginnings and endings are echoed through out life. There is birth and death; there are seasons (rebirth, life and death) in a year... Our lives are cyclical as well such that we are here to work on and complete the cycles in our own lives through our healing. The movie Life as a House illustrates this beautifully.

In the movie George, the main character, has two wake up calls. He discovers that he has cancer and is let go from his employment of many years. These wake up calls motivate George to finally re-build his house, a project that has been on his plate for some time.

The rebuilding of his house is symbolic to the re-building of his life. He has awoken to himself and to a need to transform not only his house but his life and his relationship with his son from a shack into a home.

It is by spending time together that initially George expresses the love he discovers for himself and his son. It is George’s new found ability to extend love, dedication and patience for himself and his rebellious son that bring healing to them both.

Although the healing occurs through the completion of the re-building of the house, the event could have been one of many. Our home is symbolic of ourselves and our lives and was, as such, a perfect event but the healing occurs in the growing. George could have taken his son on a trip, could have opened a new architectural firm with his son – the event can vary, it is the healing that can not. The healing can only come from our own growing and extending, first to ourselves and then to others.

It is Spring with Summer right around the corner. What projects and cycles are awaiting you? Don’t wait for your wake up call, this is a great time of the year to work on your own healing through which ever events and projects you choose. We can take advantage of the energy of the season to put our own hearts into our lives, our projects and our healing to find the great fulfillment of the completion of one of our many cycles.

Happy healing and completions to you for this season!

Love & Light,

Kalyn

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